Monday, February 11, 2013

Silly Me.. Crazy You..

I know there would be someone someday who wouldn't think that I'm such a bore and spending time with me is wasted time. With him I'll be comfortable enough to be the silly me and I wouldn't worry a bit if I would blow him off because I am pretty sure that he would love even all the silliness and craziness in me..

#my grown-up fairytale

Thursday, February 07, 2013


I must admit, I may appear to be the "iron lady" but sometimes I need someone to simply be there... Not to fix anything or do anything in particular, but just to let me feel that I am supported and cared about...

Wednesday, February 06, 2013

When I Am Afraid

I'm not the type who usually give-up on something but sometimes in order to move on, one must know when to cease striving. I would fight a good fight if I know I could change his mind but I can't, no matter how I try or what I do, nothing would change, it would just be a painful losing battle. I have battle scars all over. How I wish they could just simply go away. Yes, my heart is still breaking. Every little thing he does for her are like little darts piercing my heart. How can one continue living just to die everyday? Yes, I die everyday. I nail myself everyday with Christ so I can continue living and loving with His heart, not mine. Every time that I see him, I'm scared. I'm afraid. Scared to be hurt and afraid to cry. And whenever I feel like that, I put my trust in God. He knows what He is doing and I can count on Him, every moment, every second, in every hurt, in every pain and in every tear..

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Delight In The Lord

Last night a pastor told me to be honest with God and tell Him everything, even my deepest desire, even the pain and agony of waiting on Him. He told me to never lose my smile because "he" (read as the most suitable partner) is on his way. He's such a sweet pastor and he certainly made me smile last night. 

I must admit that I still have a lot of 'delighting' to do. I do believe that a relationship is from God and is for God and His denials are always His mercies. 

And yes! I haven't kissed marriage goodbye yet. =

Saturday, November 24, 2012

Fragile Jar Clays

Clay jars have very little value of their own. Their essential worth depends upon what they contain. If they are left empty, they have no purpose for existence. However, if they are filled with gold, their value increases dramatically.

The body of a christian is compared to an ordinary clay jar and the precious treasure it contains is Christ. We have this treasure as fragile clay jars and are precious to God as dispensers of His life-producing Word. At the same time, we also carry the death of Jesus in our body, in order for the life of Jesus to be revealed in us.

"We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed. We are perplexed, but not driven to despair. We are hunted down, but never abandoned by God. We get knocked down, but we are not destroyed. Through suffering, our bodies continue to share in the death of Jesus so that the life of Jesus may also be seen in our bodies." - 2 Corinthians 4:8-10

Since we have the Holy Spirit in us, we have the privilege of expressing His characteristics in every trial and suffering . Trials and troubles, in whatever form, are necessary for spiritual growth; without them we would not be able to exercise our faith or develop spiritual insight and strength. Just as it was necessary for Jesus to die, we too must die to self-love and become willing partakers of His sufferings, for we are called to also do that.

Fragile as I am, emotional wreak to some, but with Christ, I am a precious vessel! I am no longer viewed as just clay but I am now of worth and of value.